Thursday, 31 December 2015

BALLOON

I want to cut loose my feelings
I want to let go my frustrations
I want to desert all the hurt

I want to vacate the pain
I want to discard all the rejections
I want to kiss goodbye sadness

I'll just pretend that I'm holding a balloon
I'm about to release in 3, 2, 1
Up, up and away
It's time to say goodbye to my feelings


Let's Do This

Ilang oras na lang tapos na ang taong 2015. Hello 2016 na. Yahoo!!! Excited na ako and at the same time ayoko pa matapos ang taon. Basta, natatakot pa akong magsimula ulit. Ayon oh! Ang arte lang. Haha.

Hindi ganoon kakulay ang 2015 para sa akin. Pero hindi din naman sya naging masama. Sakto lang sa panlasa. Madami akong napagtanto. Unti-unti kong nakilala ang sarili ko ng lubusan. Mga gusto at ayaw ko. Imagine! 24 years na akong nabubuhay sa mundong ibabaw, pero lately lang ako naging aware sa mga likes and dislikes ko. Grabe sya. Pero, nabasa ko (di ko lang tanda kung saan) normal lang naman daw na sa gantong edad ay di ka pa totally aware sa mga gusto mong mangyari sa buhay mo. Kaya, normal pa ako.

Isa sa mga bagay na napagtanto ko ngayong taon, lahat ng tao ay nagbabago at walang makakapigil sa kanila. Tanggapin ko man o hindi, aminin man o hindi, pero nagbabago talaga. At na-realize ko na kailangang tanggapin at respetuhin iyon. Kasi, malay mo, ikaw, nagbago ka na din pala ayaw mo lang aminin. Kaya, respeto na lang. Napag-isip-isip ko din na hindi mo pupwedeng ipilit ang mga bagay na hindi naman talaga pwedeng mangyari. Same way na hindi mo pwedeng pilitin ang isang tao sa ayaw niyang gawin. Simple lang yan. Sabi nga sa kasabihan, "kapag gusto may paraan, kapag ayaw maraming dahilan." Just take it from there. Simple as 1, 2, 3. Wala kang magagawa kung ayaw niya.

Ngayon, mas gusto ko na na na-cha-challenge ako. Masukista na ako ngayon. Chos. Mas gusto ko na yong nahihirapan ako, kasi alam ko mahirapan man ako ngayon, there's always a rainbow after the rain. Sige lang ma-disappoint na ako ngayon, at least bukas sanay na ako sa pakiramdam at hindi na ako maninibago pa. Na-realize ko din na pu-pwede namang magpahinga, pero bawal ang sumuko. Madami akong gustong mangyari sa buhay ko at kapag sumuko ako anong chance na mangyari sila. I was on the verge of giving up this 2015. Pero naging malinaw sa akin ang mga gusto kong mangyari. May goal akong gustong ma-achieve ngayong 2016 at kailangan mangyari iyon. Yon ang nagsisilbing motivation ko para sa papasok na taon. Sana tulungan ako ni Lord na ma-achieve yon. Di ko na kailangang sabihin kung ano iyon, sa amin na lang yon ni Lord.


  • Kaya naman.........2016, I'm ready, let's do this.


Unggoy, nakahanda na ang saging para sa iyo. :)

Sunday, 8 November 2015

Stone Heart

She got tired of being miserable
She doesn't want to be vulnerable
She got tired of being disappointed
She doesn't want to be frustrated

She wants to be strong
She craves for freedom
She wants to be fierce
She craves for contentment

She no longer want loneliness
All she wants is happiness
She no longer want to be sensitive
Because what she wants is have a heart of stone

Tuesday, 20 October 2015

Ang Hubad Na Katotohanan

BABALA:
(Asawa ni...????)
Ito ay nobela. Read at your own risk. Okay?

Yong totoo, di naman talaga ako writer/blogger. Ako ay isang simpleng mamamayan ng Pilipinas sa probinsya ng Batangas. Gradweyt ng Bachelor of Science in Hotel and Restaurant Management sa isa sa mga pamosong Unibersidad dito sa Batangas. (Diba? Anong sinabi ng "pamoso"?) Yong totoo, gusto ko talagang maging abogado. Kaso, akala ko dati walang Pre-Law course sa gusto kong school na pasukan. Meron naman pala. Inisip ko nga na mag-shift ng course nong malaman kong meron naman pala. One week after ng school opening, inisip ko mag-shift, kasi feeling ko mali yong course na pinasok ko. Eventually, na-realize ko na di naman pala talaga para sa akin ang Abugasiya. Bakit? Kasi diba ang mga abugado matatapang, may paninindigan sa sarili, matibay at malakas ang loob, magaling. At ang mga bagay na iyon ay hindi ko tinataglay. Pinangarap ko din na maging isang Flight Attendant. Pero eventually (ulit) na-realize ko (ulit) hindi ako nababagay sa propesyon na iyon. Di ko na kailangan pang i-explain at i-down ang sarili ko kung bakit hindi ako nababagay doon. Okay?

Moving on, so ayon na nga. Wala naman talaga akong professional  background sa pagiging isang writer. Naisipan lang dahil wala akong magawa sa buhay. Naghahanap naman ako ng trabaho, tinatawag naman for interview, kaso lagi na lang akong bigo. Hanggang sa napagod na ako. Kaya pahinga na muna. Nakakasawa din kayang ma-reject ng ma-reject. Moving on na ulit, hangang-hanga kasi ako sa mga writers/bloggers. Lalo na kapag yong mga nababasa ko eh overloaded with English language. Tumataas yong tingin ko sa taong nagsulat. (Mga sing taas ng Mt. Everest. Chos lang.) Para sa akin kasi, reflection ka nong isinulat mo. Kapag yong isinulat mo ay punong-puno ng sense and substance, ibig sabihin lang na hindi ka basta-bastang tao lang. Ibig sabihin lang na mataas ang pinag-aralan mo, nagmula ka sa magaling na pamilya, ka-respe-respeto ka, may breeding ka at higit sa lahat matalino ka. Di ko alam kung saan ko nakuha yon, basta ganon yong tingin ko. Kaya siguro pinapangarap ko maging isang writer, kasi gusto ko din hangaan ako. Gusto ko din na tumaas yong tingin ko sarili ko. Siguro kaya gusto ko din maging Abogado, kasi gusto ko din maging matapang at gusto ko din magkaroon ng paninindigan sa sarili ko. In short, gusto ko may patunayan sa sarili ko. Gusto ko mapabilang sa mga taong magagaling. "Magaling!!!"............BIG word. Pero, iyon kasi ang totoo. Tinry ko maging writer, sa isa sa mga website na nag-o-offer na magsulat ng tungkol sa iba't-ibang topic. Unang try, reject, for revision. After revision, reject pa rin. Hanggang dalawang revisions lang ata iyon. Nong second time na pina-revise sa akin, di ko na ginawa. Wala kasi akong tiyaga na mag-revise ng mag-revise. After ilang months, nag-try ulit ako, at for the nth time, reject na naman. So okay, Siguro di talaga para sa akin ang pagsusulat. Akala ko lang pala na magaling ako.

Hindi ko naman talaga hilig ang magsulat. Basta ang alam ko lang, nong pumapasok pa ako at pinagsusulat kami ng creative writings, kapag pahabaan lang din naman ang usapan ay hindi naman ako papatalo dyan. Deadma na kung may sense ba o wala yong sinulat ko, basta mahaba sya. Di uso sa akin ang summary, kwento kung kwento. Sa pagsusulat ko inilalabas yong daldal ko. Kasi sa totoong buhay, di naman talaga ako masalitang tao. Minsan ko nang nadinig na kapag daw sa chat or text madami akong sinasabi, pero kapag kausap na ng personal o sa telepono, wala naman daw akong masabi. Eh anong magagawa ko? Eh ganon talaga eh. Kaya ngayon kahit sa chat matipid na din akong magsalita, natututo na din akong mag-summary para wala na silang masabi. Di ko talaga hilig magsalita, pero inambisyon ko talaga maging host ng isang major event. (Oo, isa yon sa mga pangarap ko talaga.) Masasagot lang kita ng isang buong sentence kung: a. Hindi answerable by Yes, No, Maybe, Oo, Hindi or Ewan yong tanong mo. b. Ako lang ang makakasagot ng tanong mo or c. Super close tayo. May mga pagkakataon kasi na ayaw ko talagang magsalita, either wala ako sa mood or ayaw ko lang talaga magsalita.

Sa pamamagitan ng pagsulat, nailalabas ko yong mga di kayang sabihin ng bibig ko verbally. Feeling ko din naman kasi walang interesado makinig sa mga kwento kong walang kwenta. Kaya naisipan ko ang mag-blog, para mailabas ang mag saloobin ko. Unang blog site na ginawa ko, wala namang entry. Yong pangalawa, ayon yong madaming posts, 41. Madami din yong page views, (naks, super proud). Pero before ako nag 24th birthday, isinulat ko na don ang aking farewell speech. (Visit reegynabunquin.blogspot.com kung interesado kang mabasa iyon.) Ni-let go ko na ang page na iyon. Hindi kasi ako yon, madaming pretensions don. Hindi naman talaga ako fluent mag-English pero mga entry ko don almost English lahat. Madami don wrong grammar at yong mga construction ng sentences mali. (For the sake of pag-fe-feeling professional blogger, nagpaka trying hard ako.) Although, totoo naman mga sinabi ko don, yon nga lang, the way na sinulat ko masyadong mapag-panggap. Tapos yong page views, 1466 page views yon pero konti lang naman ata ang totoo don ipinangampanya ko kasi yon. Before ako mag 23rd birthday nag-aim ako na maka-reach ng 1000 page views. Na-achieve ko naman, kaso ipinangampanya ko kasi yon sa twitter. Sabi ko paki visit non site, kahit wag nang basahin, basta lang ma-achieve ang 1000 page views. Masaya na na-achieve ko yon, kaso di naman tunay. Mga 5 seconds lang na masaya. Pero na-realize ko n di pala ako sa page views sasaya. Masaya na pala ako sa dagdag na isa o dalawang views at least iyon hindi ko ipinangampanya. Di ko alam kung paano nila nalaman yong blog site ko na yon, basta nadagdagan yong views nong blog ko at hindi ko naman siya ipinangampanya. Mas gusto ko pala na mabasa ng ibang tao kasi interesado sila, kesa nabasa nila kasi sinabi ko. Karamihan din ng entry ko don mga may pinagdadaanan. Kaya gusto ko na mag move on sa lahat ng iyon. Gusto ko bagong chapter na. Gusto ko na ng fresh start, at dito ko gagawin yon sa blog na ito. Pipilitin ko na masasaya lang ang i-share ko dito. Ang sabi nga ni Leona Lewis sa isa sa mga kanta niya:
"I gotta find my place, I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
'Cause I'm just trying to be happy,
Just wanna be happy"

Di ko alam kung anong ipinaglalaban ko at isinulat ko ito. Di naman ito presinto para pagpaliwangan ko. Pero, kasi................... Basta. Di ko alam kung pano ko tatapusin ang nobelang ito. Siguro babatiin na lang kita ng CONGRATULATIONS ***with matching confetti shower*** kasi napagtiyagaan mong basahin itong nobelang ito at natapos mo. THANK YOU na din sa iyo kasi nagtiyaga ka.

Bye, 'till next time. Okay?

Monday, 7 September 2015

Perfect Match

I found my perfect match in the name of doodling. I found this workbook where you can doodle everything. I really love it cause it has lots of activities. All the activities were to good not to do. I love every pages of it. Here are the sneak peek of some of the pages that I already filled up.

Hand Lettering

 
Drawings
I know these are too few. I still don't have enough materials to do the other pages. As soon as I have time, I will go on an art shopping and I just can't wait. I'll post the other pages as soon as I complete them all.

My hand lettering inspired by Ms. Abbey Sy's book, The ABC's of Hand Lettering.





2015

I'm not really a huge fan of planners before. I don't want to plan anything because I don't want to be disappointed when something don't happen the way I planned it. And it's not my thing for an everyday update. But that was before. After I graduated from college I started using planner. Since the 2014 I started doing my own personalized planner, because some of the planners really costs high and the designs were too simple and plain. So I thought of doing my own where I can have my desired design. But it's not totally a planner, it's more of an everyday journal.

Here's a peek on my 2015 planner featuring the iconic, Audrey Hepburn. Background images were from Pinterest. There are really lots of beautiful designs to choose.


The layout.

I Don't Care, I Love It

My Scrapbooks


I am really a huge fan of arts and crafts. It will always be the thing that I would do freely. If other girls spend their money on beauty products, well me if you give me money I will surely spend it on scrapbooking materials. Scrapbook is one of the things that I would never outgrow. I can imagine my life still doing scrapbooks while I am sitting on my pink rocking chair. When I was a child, when I saw I gift wrapper that was used already, I would recycle it and turned it into a mini album. I would put there some of my photos or even the photos of my favorite celebrities. Sometimes when the school year was already over, I would pile up my unused notebook pages and turned it into a photobook, I would cover it new with colored papers. I had no idea before of what it is called with that recycling and designing and pasting. Eventually, I learned that it is what they call scrapbooking. All of my scrapbooks has its own unique stories to tell. I love all of them. From big to small scrapbooks, simple to elegant, name it, surely I have it.


This is the very first major scrapobook that I did when I was in high school.
This is one of our projects in home economics. This is not the original design. I just altered it as soon as our teacher returned to us. The cover was made of pink abaca fiber with pink colored wrapper. I used styrofoam underneath each letter for an embossed effect. This is all about my elementary and high school life. Inside this were some letters from my friends in high school, photos from our field trips and some of photos that I transferred from my photo album.


I did this scrapbook when I was still in college. The other half pages of this scrapbooks was a gift from my friend during our Kris Kringle. Inside here were photos from college, tickets from the concerts that we watched, gift tags, price tags and my class cards. The cover image collage were gift from my friends during my 18th birthday. You can flip it and there's another cover, my photos and my name on it, the photo collage was also included in the gift.

This scrapbook was created after I graduated from college. This is all about me. See the front page? With bold letters "SELF CENTERED." This is where I put the photos of my favorite foods, wrote the lyrics of my top 10 favorite songs, photos of my college best friends, my bucket lists, and of course, my selfies.



This is for my 18th birthday photos. You can already conclude what the theme was. I used some postage stamps for the cover design and paper that I soaked in tea for a vintage effect. I also put there the flag of France. I put the Eiffel Tower 'cause it's one of my bucket list. But on the back cover the flag was of United Kingdom. I just really love the combination of blue and red. About the photos, I used photo collage with layout just like of a mail with postage stamps. And I used washi tape as an additional design. I burned the edges of the pages to stick with the vintage theme.


This is the simplest of all my scrapbooks. This is all about my "gala" days in Manila after we had our internship. This is so simple that I didn't put any designs. It's just all about the captions.

Pile of my scrapbooks.

It's really my thing to collect some souvenirs, even if it's just a tissue paper. I don't care if they think I'm to old old for stuffs like this, I love doing it.

These are some of the pages of my journal.